…and counting.

In a very short time I’ll be leaving a decade behind. Isn’t it funny…..one minute changes everything somehow. And yet really…it changes nothing.

After all…it’s only a number.

Yes…but what a number!

I spent my entire 29th year depressed that I was going to turn 30 and that there was absolutely nothing I could do about it. That wasn’t helpful. At all.

Living and learning, as they say, I’ve spent my 39th year determined to use my up-and-coming birthday as a springboard – the start of a year long celebration. I think that’s supposed to happen every 50 years (year of jubilee) but I can do it again in a decade. Every good thing that happens this entire year will be “for my birthday”. Just warning you all to be prepared to hear that phrase happily and often.

I feel like I should write a post full of deep thoughts on turning 40. But I have tried, and I think what I’m finding is that I have no deep thoughts on it. Upon further reflection and deeper examination, I find there to be several possible explanations for that: (Did anyone else notice that last sentence doesn’t sound like me at all, or is it just me?)

a) I’m not REALLY turning 40. There has been a mistake somewhere along the way.

b)I’m turning 40 with the Ancient Ones in a community full of people decades older than me. I’m still the baby of the neighborhood and everyone treats me like a child…so it’s almost a moot point really. Would be completely different if I were turning 40 at home where I would be “The Ancient One”.

c) Turning 40 is accompanied by so much hype and sensationalism, but I’m looking at it very pragmatically and realize there is nothing to it.

d) The entire idea is so utterly ridiculous to me that I can’t take it seriously.

e) I am in total denial.

f) All of the above.

A few months ago I half jokingly said I would dye my hair and pierce my ears on my 40th birthday.

I’m not doing that.

Quite honestly, I’ve grown thankful for my gray hair. Since I still feel like I’m 25, I’m using my quickly graying hair…and yes, even a few wrinkles…to remind me that time is passing…and that I need to be aware of who and where I am in my life. Nice as we think it would be to always be 25…we’re not. And there are different times and seasons. I don’t want to miss out on the beauty of the seasons by dreaming that springtime will last forever. (How incredibly wise and mature does that sound? HA!)

And…..I’m still not good at making decisions or figuring out how I feel about poking holes through my ears…again.

Anyway…

Next time I post…I will be 40. How’s that for unbelievable?

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26 thoughts on “…and counting.

  1. Really unbelievable for me… I’m so glad you posted. A great post…I love it. I love you…Happy Birthday! It’s only 25 minutes away, but I’m not staying up. So good night! ❤ ❤ ❤ I'll dream about your absolutely wonderful lemon cheesecake pound cake or whatever it is. Love you so much!

    1. Thanks, Mom! Glad you like the post. I love you too! So much!!! I’m guessing it’s maybe more unbelievable for you than me even. Gotta feel weird to have 2 kids over 40 now! 😉 ❤ ❤ ❤

    1. Sarah! So good to hear from you! Haven’t talked to you in forever!!! How ARE you??? Still have my email? Cause I’d love to have an update on your life! Thank you for such a lovely comment! ❤

  2. 😀 I loved this post…. ALOT{and yes, I know alot isn’t a real word!} You have made me look forward to turning 40!! And I don’t know what wrinkles you are talking about?!! As for the gray hair, well remember Proverbs 16:31, “Gray hair is a crown of glory”. 🙂

    May our great God bless you this year and all the years to follow. You have been an encouragement and blessing to me and I am thanking the Lord for you today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Eat an extra piece of birthday cake for me!! “So teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom.”

    1. Rachel, you make me smile! Looking forward to 40?!??! It’ll be here, sooner than you can imagine. And I think we should all get together and eat lemon cream cheese pound cake together and celebrate YOU all year long! 😉

      Thanks for always being such a sweet encourager, my little friend! ❤

  3. Happy Birthday!!!! I wish I were with you to celebrate! I believe “f” is the correct answer. Have a great day and I hope to see you sometime soon. Love ya!!
    p.s. but if I had to go with one……I’m always up for total denial.

    1. You crack me up, Alicia! We need to plan our trip for the year. How about Africa?!? 😉 Just kidding. But we do have to do SOMETHING. Glad we have a year to come up with something….

      And I believe you’re right about “f”. 🙂

  4. Happy birthday, sister-o-mine! LOVE you!!!! And wish you were home for it…course if you were I’d be trying to talk you in to spending it with me at the E. 😉 I’m excited about your birthday “year” can’t wait to read about all your celebrations…big and small. ❤

  5. HAPPY BIRTHDAY for real…this time…love you, incredible daughter of mine!!! Hope you have a great day and a fabulous year of celebrations! Maybe we should do a flick…”How to Be 40″ Could be a hit!

  6. Sage! I missed your birthday… Seems like I do every year. So happy belated birthday! I hope you had an incredibly, wonderfully blessed day!

  7. Happy birthday Year! I can’t believe that you are 40. The forty year was a good one for me (much better than the 50 😉 In fact forty would be my year of choice, who wants to be 25 again??
    As someone wrote above, can’t wait to read about your adventures.

    1. Thanks, Sharon! So fun to hear from you! And thanks for the encouragement. You are SO right!! Why would I want to be 25 again anyway?!?! 😉

      Hope you’re doing well. It’s been too long.

  8. Thank you for commenting on my blog! You have no idea how happy it makes me to have evidence that someone has read it! I enjoyed reading your blogs for about an hour tonight. I was especially blessed by your post in this blog appreciating your immediate family. But the whole thing was an interesting, and sweet, touching, entertaining and uplifting read. A couple decades ago, the Reader’s Digest used to publish writing that was this good.

    1. Oh, Tiffany! I love your blog! Wish you had time to update it more often, but I understand that you’re probably on your toes a lot! 😉 Thank you for this lovely comment. So encouraging! ❤

  9. I’m SO excited to have stumbled onto your blogs! I’m also thankful to “reconnect” with you! And I love exclamation points! 😀

  10. Huh? 40? Can’t be. You look/act/are every bit of 29! I hope it was a much celebrated day/year of your life. I’m now on the cusp of 50! (though was just told the other day I look to still be in my 30’s. Wooohooo!) It seems each decade I say I’m going to get in my best possible physical shape. And though, I never pull it off as I’d initially set out, I’ve realized that with the mentality I’ve kept myself in pretty decent shape over the years. Honestly, I have more muscle tone to me at 49 than I did at 19!!!
    Anyway…lol…I loved this post and your honesty within it. I think we all rethink and over~think these milestones. But I guess if it keeps us moving in a positive direction and open to real change than it’s worth the bit of shock to the mental state it throws us into. lol
    BTW, no wonder we seem to have so many shared WonDerFuL qualities…we are both March babies! 😉
    Keep writing, Sage. I always love your perspective!

    1. Haha! Thank you, DeeDee! I’ll take 29 any day! 🙂 Yay for March birthdays. Hope you had a good one. Thanks for the comment and encouragement. Always great to hear from you!

  11. I am so thrilled that I found your blog! I indulged myself and spent nearly an hour reading posts. You made me laugh, you made me cry, and best of all ….you presented a unique perspective about many things which will have me pondering for days. I just love the idea of celebrating all year long! Those grey hairs are just silver ribbons awarded by God and, as Shakespeare wrote, ” With mirth and laughter let old wrinkles come!”

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